welcome to my life.
i cry more than i laugh. i'm annoying at times. fake smile 24/7. i hate going to school, cause i feel like everyones just there to judge me. i might as well wear a sign on my head that says "insecure". ipod-best friend. i let people walk out of my life too easily, & everyone that's ever made me truly happy has pretty much made sure to follow that path. i let my guard down too easily. from now on, it's up until i can find someone that's actually worth putting it down for. definitelynot the prettiest. so paranoid, that when i get called pretty, i think it's a joke. sometimes id rather stay at school then go home. its like a war zone there. i dont open up to my friends about anything, because i feel like theyre annoyed. flirting? not my thing. cause i fear rejection. then again, who doesnt? when i graduate high school, i'm so out of here. although i know i probably shouldnt wish it away so fast. fate hates me. everytime im happy, its like something says "oh, she's too happy." and something always goes wrong.
story of my life.
i hold onto the memories, because people change.
i wish i knew how to move on.