I'm sorry. I know
my situation isn't all that bad,
but i really need to vent.
i fell in love with this guy,
and as always he tore me apart.
he told me he liked me and said i was
nice and funny and "smokin."
he said he wanted to go out with me,
but he was gonna wait to ask me out for a surprise.
the next night he asked out
one of my best friends.
i mean, i know that she's
prettier, skinnier, funnier, nicer, more athletic, and just better,
but why did he say that?
just to break me?
just to make mee fell a little more worthless
than i already feel?
today was a horrible day.
thank god i have connor, or i don't know what i would do.
but seriously,
he's the only guy i can trust.
i feel so stupid.
and annoyed.
and cheated.
and broken.
and the other night, i wasn't even thinking,
and i grabbed the razor.
i was so scared. i didn't wanna cut.
i didnt wanna be that kind of person.
but i almost did.
i almost blew it.
then i thought of connor.
and how heartbroken he would be.
so i didn't.
and i know that he is my angel sent from above,
because he's one of the only reasons that
i'm still okay.