i always wonder what it would be like if i was gone.... would anybody care? would anyone miss me? would he notice? nobody know how much i cry because i feel like no one is there. i have always felt like the reject, like the one who was the third wheel. i always felt like people only hung out with me because the pitied me... i am tired of being the third wheel. i am tired of being runner up... i wish i knew what it was like to be someone's first choice.... whenever i try to do something and i think I'm good at it someone comes and does way better than me... i am never good enough. my best friend doesn't think anyone likes her... but i don't get why... she is pretty, funny, smart, and skinny... she is everything i wish i was... i don't know what it's like to have someone want to be like me.... but i understand why... i am fat, ugly, stupid, and worthless... i don't even want to be me... so i think i answered me own questions... which is no.. no one would miss me... no one would care... and he probably doesn't even know that i exist...