I’m sorry for everything. I never meant to hurt you. How was I supposed to know that you felt like that? You never told me. I feel like a terrible person but I didn’t know. And I miss us. I miss sitting with you on the bus, texting all night, oovooing when I look terrible, our conversations on the phone and you telling me you’ll always be there for me. I called you my best friend forever but I guess your version of forever is a lot shorter than mine. I know it’s selfish to think we could go back to the way it used to be but I couldn’t date you and not like you. This ways easier it has to be like this. And that’s the worst part. I see you everyday in the halls and you can’t even look at me. You look at the ground escaping my eyes. I’m sorry for everything. Its wrong to think I don’t deserve this because I do.I hate myself for not loving you. We would be perfect for each other. But you’ve moved on. And It hurts me when I see you with other girls and when I heard you kissed her I got angry and jealous even though you’re not mine. You always made that pain go away. That pit in my stomach would disappear when you were around. You always made me smile. And now it’s always there. I hate it. I feel worthless and like I don’t deserve anything. I always want to break down and cry, I deserve it but I try to make myself not feel guilty.