She lays down her bed, the days events unfolding over and over again.
She blasts her ipod, the music pulsing through her.
She covers her face with her pillow,
as the tears start to fall.
Her mascara starts to run, she lets out a curdling scream.
The pain inside her is to much,
so she seeks something more.
She takes the razor blade,
SLASH,
the pain inside is no more.
She looks down at the crismon blood,
its flowing very quickly.
She shuts her eyes one last time and thinks
"Boy, I want to die."
The blood begins to pool, down onto her sheets,
she sobs great sobs, knowing this is it.
Her mommy opens the door and calls out her name,
"Anna belle where are you?"
"Mommy! Please come quick!"
Her mother races towards her, and grabs onto her hands.
The little girl sinks back, why did she do this?
She doesn't want to die, she wants to be alive.
How can this stop? Will the pain of wanting something else
EVER end?
"Mommy, I'm so sorry. I don't want to die. I love you so darn much,
I wish I could take it back. Tell Daddy I love him too.
and I'll see you guys in heaven."
Anna belle lets her mother wipe her tears, as she begins to pray.
"Dear Lord, Please forgive me. I didn't mean for this,
I thought I wanted to die, but all I want is to stay. I'm so sorry, please lord forgive me!"
The girls heart begins to stop, her breathing starts to slow.
The mother screams and dials 911.
The ambulance pulls in, and the girl opens her eyes,
"This is it Mom. Its time for me to die."
&Slowly, the mother starts to cry.
She kisses her babygirl, and holds onto her tight, as her whole world
comes crashing down.
Suicide doesn't take away the pain,
it just passes it on to those who love you the most.
Remember that.