On december 8 2011 i asked a beautiful intelligent, headstrong, confident girl ,named mykayla marie cutone, to be my girlfriend. At first to me she was just a pretty face with an attractive body that i thought i could get something from. Soon enough did i realize i had fallen for her. Somewhere between the long interesting conversations on the phone and tinychatting almost 24/7 i had began to really like her. After hanging out and talking constantly being in our relationship for only 1month i knew i had fallen in love.
As time went on we did many things together we had celebrated and had are first real date we went to adventuredome on our one month as a "birthday present" , she paid for me, and still to this day she doesnt even know i felt horrible that she paid for me lol. Then came my 15th birthday a long night fullof fun and lots of flirting with her and showing her off. We went bowling a few times and to the movies a couple of times but it was mostly hanging out at her house or mine.
If i could exactly how many times i have been to her house and she has been to mine i would but its so hard to keep count. Many things we have seen eachother do and achieve. She watched as many volleyball games and football games of mine as she could and would come to as manyof her softball games as iwaz allowed. Out of all the timeswe hung out ther are a few that reallystand in my mind. The first would definately have to be her eighth grade award ceremony. Watching her get all of her awards made me smile thinking to myself "wow she is so amazing and so smart ireally look up to her."
Another time that really stands out in my head the most is when we went to the millitary ball together. I was so nervous i dont know if she could tell how nervous i was. All i could think about was how beautiful she looked in her dress. She, to me, was the most beautiful girl there. Other than her extrvagance making me nervous i was even more nervous to dance. It was my first slow dance with a girlfriend. It was amazing even though the adults were telling us that we couldnt xance so close lol. But the favorite part of the evening was when the dance ended and we waited out side for my dad go pick us up.t was kind of cold out and i had to hold her to keep her warm it was an amazkng night.
Many other memories i could share but reallydont have a lot of time to write. The purpose of this is to say as fast and amazing things start off they ,an end just as fast. Around our 11months we began to clashand fight over stupid petty things. Bringing other people into our relationship. Stress and unhappiness after awhile shrouded both of us it was getting to the point where we fought a lot. We wereboth unsure and one day iended it because she said she didnt if she loved me or wanted to be with me anymore. Not thinking brfore i acted i regreted it after about a week we got back together trying tofix things and started off looking like we might but in the end she had lost feeling and shortly ended our relationshipfor good. Decmber 4 2012 has to be the worst day of my life so far.
Yes we broke up but was i just gonna give up no i wasnt. I tried for weeks and little by little tried to talk to her again. Even though i put all my effort there i failrd she has moved on and didnt want to deal with the pain and hurt she had gone through fir the past few months. Yes i will metion i did something to hurt her and apologozef many times for but in the end sorry diesnt stop the hurt. Tiday is february 10 2013. I am still completely in love with what is now mykayla marie cutone the most beautiful, most amazing young woman i know. We went through so much and in the end couldnt hold together. Im nota quitter for not fighting right now im letting her enjoy her happiness again which she deserves. As for me i sit in my room and think about how beautiful she is how much i wish i could be holding her hand and holding her again and kissing her. Showing her off to the world as my girlfriend. I miss our little nicknames. I miss caling her babygirl and princess and babe and baby. And i miss her calling me boobear and babe and sweety. Most of all i miss telling her i love her. Letting her know i was there for anything and anytime she needed me. What ever you do dont give up on love. Love conquers all as long as you believe. Theres always a chance in life justlike theres always faith in love.
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