“ you have only seen yourself two times taking a picture and looking at the image and staring in the mirror and looking at your reflection you don’t get to see the way your eyes light up when you talk about something you love and you can never see how beautiful you look when you really smile it’s really is kinda sad that never actually seen yourself but I can promise you I will be here everyday to tell you what i see. — R.J
I just want a relationship that will make all the girls jealous. I want a boyfriend. I want a bestfriend. Who is allowed to come over with no problem. Someone who will look me in the eyes and show me that cute little smile. He won't judge me for not going past my standards. Kiss me in the rain and wrestle me over something stupid. Send me texts that make my day. He has time for me. Love me for my sweatpants and baggy shirts. Lots of hugs. He's funny but can stand my insecurities. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras, and take a lot of silly pictures of each other. We'd spray squirt guns at each other, just to mess around. One who would be my bestfriend, and never break my heart...just make me smile all the time! But most importantly, he won't be afraid to have me fall madly in love with him.
I do a lot of thinking before I go to sleep... I play scenes in my head. Practice things I want to say. I have endless "What Ifs". I make plans that I never follow through with. I think about people. Ask myself questions I can't answer. Am I the only one?