We were sitting at lunch today.
He was next to me. I took my sweatshirt off, and he saw my arms. He saw the cuts. He looked at me and said:
“Please stop. Dont do this to yourself. Your better than this. You mean so much to so many people.”
I looked at him and said:
“If I mean so much to so many people, then why did YOU leave me.? You gave up on me and walked out on me. You left me for HER.”
He then replied with:
“I left you because, you deserve so much more than me. I wasnt good enough, and I knew that theres someone out there that loves you more than I ever could. Your a great girl, but you deserve someone who you can count on. Who you know loves you. I will always love you. No matter what. Your amazing. I felt like you deserved and wanted better than me.”
I teared up, I left him sitting there, with all the other friends we shared.
He didnt know, that all I wanted was him. No one else. He was the one I thought I was gonna marry one day. The one who knew everything about me. The only one I thought I could trust. I miss him.
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