But you don't understand now do you?
well; okay when me and him broke up, i felt like my heart was rotting out of my chest, i officially had a hole in my heart that needed to be filled. he broke my heart, and it hurt bad to know that hes tha one i loved so much, i stayed the night at his house with him all tha time, he made me feel perfect, & ive always wanted someone to walk in my life, not stop to notice my flaws and imperfections and love me for tha beautiful girl inside me, he made me relize what love felt like.
i felt like i needed to fill that hole in my heart; my mind told me im ready, but my heart said i wasnt, i never actually felt as wanted as i felt when i was with him.
& ive relized he's the only one who can fix that empty place, because hes the one who caused it, and i still love him so much, i love him tha same amount as i did when we were togeather, he made me feel real; i never show the real smile on my face anymore, its all just a fake smile, because deep down, i feel pain and sorrow, and im depressed, and its hard for me to get over things. now do you understand? the cuts, the tears, the sleepless nights? the facebook status's? yeah they werent all for nothing. you never understood did you?
Don't try to get with me when you don't know my story.
im done. bye.