~The Broken Parachute~
A short story.
This had been going on for months. I walk through the halls with my head to the ground. I cannot bear to see him with her for one more minute. They weren't together anymore. He claimed they were just "friends." He knew how I felt. He claimed he felt the same way. He was complicated.
He had been with her on and off for months. I assumed it was like a roller coaster ride with its ups and downs. He disagreed. He claimed it was more like a parachute ride which just kept going down. If it was a parachute ride, however, why did he keep holding on. I didn't understand. I never have, and don't think I ever will.
I can understand one thing. He had attachments issues. It was due to the fact that he was adopted from Russia. He had a hard time getting away from her no matter how hard he tried. She some how always got him back which is why I'm not with him.
From what I've seen and heard about the two, she truly doesn't care about him. He confessed to her his feelings for me and she exploded. They were not together at the time. She doesn't want to lose him to me. I simply just do not want to lose him. Come June, he would be gone. He would be leaving for the military and God only knows if I would ever see him again.
I pray time will slow down. Maybe then the two of us can have a chance. I've been shedding tears at the thought of him leaving. I cry myself to sleep every night. I can remember one day when I was dealing with my depression. I tried to stay strong but my mind was cluttered full of emotion. He grabbed my hands, looked me in the eyes, and said, "I'll be fighting for you." I broke down and he held me in his arms. I sobbed into his shoulder as he sang quietly in my ear. Even if he wasn't mine and even if he never truly would be, I did love him. He was, is, and always will be my one and only.
The hard part is caring so much for him and knowing I'm battling with a girl who doesn't care half as much. She is clearly aware of his issues. She knows he can't get away and she takes advantage of this. I am always by his side. I try to help him through the ups and the downs of every aspect of his complicated life. I will stand by him forever and always. I care for him knowing of the little money he and his parents are living off of. I care for him knowing his flaws. I care for him knowing I may never have him.
Thoughts? Comments?
This was only half of the story. If anyone's reading I would love to post the rest.
BUT I can only do that if I know someone is reading.
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