I promised myself I wouldn't let this happen to me anymore. I promised myself I wouldn't let another guy in my life. But I did, and slowly I can feel myself letting my guard down and having him come closer to me. It scares me more than anything to be so vulnerable, to have my heart in the palm of his hands.
Every word you say to me shoots through me like a bullet. You dont care though, You just keep repeating yourself; saying its all my fault as im breaking down to nothing. When I'm really gone, i hope you realize what you did to me.
Everyone tried to warn me about him. Hes not good for you, they all said. You can do so much better dont get caught up in his games. But I didnt listen. I thought we were perfect for each other and I completely fell for him. Now, I realize the games he plays with girls. Just the thought of having another boyfriend scares me, what if he turns out the same way? He doesnt even understand what he did to me. im afraid to get into another realtionship now. He ruined me, and I dont even think he cares.
Even after everything you put me through, making me cry more than anyone has ever made me cry before, I still only want you. You've probably already moved on and found another girl, but when I said I fell for you; I fell real hard and its going to take me a while to get back on my feet again.
I thought things would get better? If I did all these things, everything would turn around for me. But everyday feels like an even bigger struggle to stay strong. I dont know how much longer i can do it for.
Does he not realize that when I say we are over, I dont want us to be. It's just what has to be done and we both need to accept it. Does he not realize im breaking down inside, Hearing him say he's not going to give up? It's not going to change my mind. Does he not realize how much I am going through right now.
Im sorry. Im sorry I care too much, and sometimes cry too much. Im sorry I think the worst of everything, especially about myself. Im sorry I cut again, and that I promised I wouldnt. Im sorry im not who you thought I was. Im sorry I gave you everything I had, then gave up on us. Im sorry.