jahn79* posted a quote
December 24, 2015 2:26pm UTC
The planyou said we would talk we never didyou said I was your friend you forsookyou said I held your heart another you loveyou said for me to stay the way is lockedyou said your would write my name is blockedyou said you loved me I am free
jahn79* posted a quote
December 24, 2015 2:22pm UTC
I will catch you if the moon will notI will speak your names to the angelsI will lead by the hand when you cannot seeI will call your name when you are lostimpassable boundaries forged the darkness reflecting betraying portrayingembrace that which is within
jahn79* posted a quote
December 19, 2015 7:52am UTC
PerfumeCut and scared Blue and WhiteStretched and twistedTwelve birds circling Trees bare rolling hillsIce floating worms sleepingTraps all set gnomes watchingPassing being passed A house a dream on the mountainsideNorth then East the gale blowsShe smiles and loves the EefI so analytical elusive charming Thoughts of the Blue RoomWhen she first smiledI the storm she the rainbowWe the birds rosella Red and Blue The Blue room the Eef we afraidShe so beautiful I is becomingAlone together tears and smilingBodice and lace Blue and White Trusting longing hopingAcross great seas a voice is heardFor a moment perhaps foreverAlone is forgottenI the teacherShe the philosopherEager minds learning gazingHeart palpitating Lessons preparedThe Eef is awareShe the accompliceI on the promenadeWe the lover the traveler I is safe in the cocoonGliding across mountains and dreamsAbove the angstWe in a panic fearful uncertain A ghostInvisibleShe peers at the life of her friendsThey cannot seeThe Eef gives a sighSo alone so notWith highlights and lowlightsSparkles stars and dreams Intrigue beautiful elusiveElectricity arcing memories floodingThe sound of a voice in a dreamShe is not aloneA secret hidden not from she
jahn79* posted a quote
December 16, 2015 4:36am UTC
You areWe of I are frightened that you will goYou of her are the world the heart of manyWe of us are begging pleading in tearsThe ghosts the demons have no power Your guardian angel who held you tightSuch love compassion in her eyesSuch furry at those who mockedI of we pray to God give me of us your pain These words we of I have heard beforeThe nothing coming to consumeYou her she all that is are loved beyond and nowWe of us of many are pleading to God By your experience you her she learned compassionThe numb the cold the surreal the empty consumingPenniless but not aloneWithout your heart your sword which is your pen Close your eyes and feel the love the compassionYou she her are the guardian angel of many
jahn79* posted a quote
December 13, 2015 6:55pm UTC
Do I have to put my shoes back on?I remembertaking my shoes and shirt off for the summer not putting them back on until school started in the fallsneaking into 7-11when the clerk was not watchingno shirt no shoes no servicewe would buy our candy and run out gigglingdeep golden tansswimming at the neighborhood poollong bicycle ridestalk of braveryexploring underground tunnels that went for milessearching the skies for flying saucersendless talk of girls and what we thought they likedwe never knewsleeping in the back yard tent for the summerhomemade firecrackersdesigning an intergalactic super computerendless game of tag after darkwith the girls watchinglittle brothersbig sistersday old cupcakes two for a nickeldreaming of a stopwatchkeeping an eye on a neighborhood pedophilehe tried to molest us oncecrew cutsabbey roadVietnammy parents never sent me to math campI applied to IBM they offered me jobuntil my sister told them how old I wasI scored a perfect 100 on their testI think I was 11 maybe 12it took me two weeks to get all the answers rightI was so mad at my sistermy best friend was bi-polarhe never went to collegehe read 3000 books then he killed himselfI applied to Microsoft 30 years agothey asked me to design a Device DriverI was a mathematiciana member of MensaI did not get the jobI am giving a talk tomorrowdesigning trusted Device DriversI wonder if IBMor Microsoft will be there?when I retire I am thinking PhoenixI never did see a flying saucerI think my bi-polar friend was wrongHe saw them all the timedo you still have to wear a tie to work at IBM?I could never wear a tiehome made ice cream in the winterpine nuts at grandmas in the fallcleaning my first fishsummer is almost over
jahn79* posted a quote
December 8, 2015 10:07pm UTC
The secretMysteryLayers upon layersBeauty beyond wordsEach layer leading to the nextEach layer enabling the nextThe realization that there was anotherBeforeThe realization that the other wasNot of the pastThe realization that you were the secretThe past the present the future in oneThe lost loveThe hoped for loveThe found loveThe secret can never be toldIt can only be felt with the heart
jahn79* posted a quote
December 3, 2015 8:57pm UTC
VoicesI can hear themmemories are speakingthey whisper softlyvoices always thereshadows in the darkdark on dark contrastedfading into memoment to momentseducing my thoughtsholding meswirling glitters of doubtdreams I dare not dreamenticing daemonsangels unawareand despairabandoned carving my dualitya ghost in the life of my friendspiercing my sanitythe source of my pain and strength
jahn79* posted a quote
December 2, 2015 9:21pm UTC
Secrets kept universes separated dark matterLooking back remembering the past Climbing the mountain of hope not alone Familiar places empty alone once light now dark
jahn79* posted a quote
November 29, 2015 9:59pm UTC
Rational and irrational coexisting never touchingStanding in the shadows of memoriesSuspicion is black and blueSecrets hidden never askedHer old man had a hard day
jahn79* posted a quote
November 29, 2015 3:54pm UTC
Daggers coming from your mouth What happened to the love Song mirth love replaced with self pity The sun gone dark the moon blood Things done spoiled expired The cross became a thousand pounds I need to find memories to let me sleep Laying awake fearful of you sleep flees
jahn79* posted a quote
November 29, 2015 3:24pm UTC
The dogHe says he loves you A crack in the heavens a rainbow is seenHe cares for you takes you on walks and drives I am safe because of you He is allusive foreign Monsters defeated flowers are goneThe students are gone Hedgehogs guarding The chipmunks hiding Song birds silent in my dreamsDaemons in hiding for fear of light Old man cactus standing guarding Beautiful smiles such hope Little ones laughing calling to youImagination and reality colliding The moon concealed
jahn79* posted a quote
November 27, 2015 2:23pm UTC
ForgivenessNothingness hiding in the shadows Dreams replacing delusionWind Rain Lightening Storm raging beauty Mind seeing beyond the realDreams hide from Nightmares Faith beyond deceptionsPeace dispels Despair Spiritual inner peace returningFear turns to wonder Strength learned from painLove embraces Hate Heart palpitations at a thoughtMe You once us Tears stalk without mercyNow aloneHoping
jahn79* posted a quote
November 26, 2015 6:19am UTC
in a betrayal of the heart a cruel taskmaster she longed for a friend the destroyer of dreams someone who understood cries to God why me someone who could make her happy passion turned to slavery despair share her dreams consuming the dreams bring passion into her life destroying faith searching deceiving in all the wrong places preying where nice men hide in the dark but not good men
jahn79* posted a quote
November 24, 2015 4:38am UTC
I could have been a wife I walk the rivers of emptiness but I panicked In the middle of nowhereI could have been a tailors dummy I am bowed to the earth but I cannot keep silence My pen writing what I cannot sayI could have been a mistress On the clouds I fly but I am prudish Dressed in red yellow whiteI could have been a man I am dignity grace and beauty but biology evaded me Surrounded by friends aloneI could have been a bird I am frozen in the wind but I cannot fly My wings touched heavenI could have been a book I am bound and sealed but fear no-one would read me Covered in dust
jahn79* posted a quote
November 23, 2015 8:02am UTC
slow motion days moments seem as hourslost love empties the soulten thousand tearspain alone so deeplost hope emptinessshattered dreamsfearful of taking new stepsthe world conspirestogether places grey and aloneminutes to hourshours to daysdays to monthswhispers in the windcold chillsdaemons angels dreams unreala new friendworlds aparta muse a heart beat awaya tear a smile