Where would I be in life right now if you were here?
Would I have been able to go to all those partys I missed because i was watching my brother?
Would I still have such a cursing addiction because thats all i hear from my mom?
Would my older brother still have an addiction to.... bad things?
Would I still have to rely on sports to get my anger out?
Would our family have enough money to not worry about losing our house?
Would we be moving from the house i have lived in since I was born?
Would mom still be so stressed out, yelling all the time?
Would I still fear every day that mom is going to die and I will have nobody?
I guess I will never know I have been living like this since i was 7 years old, in 2nd grade. I am now 13 years old in 8th grade and doing pretty damn good without you.
Just because I say Im doing good, doesnt mean I dont miss you ever single day. Every time I think of the hugs you used to give and the times we went swimming and built forts, i miss you more then every. Its gonne be 6 years on May 17th.
I miss you daddy<3
But heavens just to far...<3
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