I have a long list of problems I could put here but there would be no point in that. I'm a mess, but I'm a happy, hot mess. I'm gender neutral, panromantic, demisexual. I'm almost 16, i love satire, videogames, animals, buzzfeed, Game of Thrones, dirty jokes, Dr. Pepper, rock and emo music, Intelligent debates at 3 am, and making weird noises at my cat and spending way too much time on tumblr. I write poetry and short stories in my free time or draw comic strips and anime. I'm an okay painter and I cant sing but I love to. I can cook pretty well. My jokes are the best, or the worst, depending on your opinion on puns. I have way too many stuffed animals for a kid my age and bought fairy lights a year ago and still haven't put them up in my room. I'm an idiot romantic at heart and am feircly loyal to my bestfriends, I'm a hella anxious person but I enjoy conversation so please, feel free to message me any time. (\ /)
I find a lot of the stuff I wrote here very cringey and I'm having to actively fight against the urge to make fun of myself for it, so I'm choosing instead to do some inner child healing by being proud of little me for how much passion I clearly had for this. I put a lot of work into this stuff and was really looking for a healthy outlet while going through a whole whole lot.
"Have you ever been on a sailboat, surrounded by sea with no land in sight, without even the possibility of sighting land for days to come? To stand at the helm of your destiny. I want that, one more time. I want to be in the Piazza del Campo in Siena. To feel the surge as 10 racehorses go thundering by. I want another meal in Paris, at L'Ambroisie, at the Place des Vosges. I want another bottle of wine. And then another. I want the warmth of a woman and a cool set of sheets. One more night of jazz at the Vanguard. I want to stand on the summits and smoke Cubans and feel the sun on my face for as long as I can. Walk on the Wall again. Climb the Tower. Ride the River. Stare at the Frescos. I want to sit in the garden and read one more good book. Most of all I want to sleep. I want to sleep like I slept when I was a boy. Give me that, just one time." Raymond 'Red' Reddington
You are amazing unique and beautiful. There is nothing more you need to be, do, or have in order to be happy. You are perfect- Just. As. You. Are. Yes, really. So smile, give love and enjoy every moment of this precious life. --Jynell St. James
Always do your best. Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgement, self-abuse, and regret.
I don't talk about you anymore. I don't run and hide like prey when someone touches me. I dont close my eyes at night and see your face seared into my eyelids. the scars from your hands are no longer burned into my soul. Youre a dark mark in my past and nothing else. I am stronger than you. I am stronger than what you've done to me. You have no power over me.
I know you'll never love me. I know I live too far away, my hearts never in the right place, my minds in the gutter, my body's not great and I have very radicle veiws, im not in a great mental place. But I love you with everything I have through and through. My love for you aches through my stomach up into my heart. I think about you all the time, I can't keep you out o fmy dreams. I just f-cking love you so god d-mn much.