I need advice....This is long, but please. I need help.
Okay, so ever since I met this guy I liked, my best friend has had bad feelings about him and we've been arguing. It was ripping our friendship apart. Ever since we've been arguing, even though I dont like the guy anymore. He gets mad at me because I'm too sensitive and I cry about every little thing, and I get upset with him because he's too insensitive and doesnt once care about my feelings. Yes, he's a guy. But he doesnt like me. He's gay!
This week we sort of got in a fight again. It was about applebees.Me and our friend Zack have some new friends from this school group we have. We want a chance to get to know them, but one girl that Jared, my best friend knows, invites him along. He ends up coming, since we really had no legitimate answer to not invite him. Even though he almost ditched our friend Hannah since they were going to hang out that same day. But she tagged along too, because I didnt want her to feel left out.
So, all four of us were at my house on friday and I just wasnt in a good mood. I had went through a lot this week with stupid boys and bullying sort of. I told them I had to go do something upstairs and be right down but I didnt come back up. I just hid in my room and cried. Plus, all they do is ignore me unless they want to mock me or make the butt of the joke. I know, friends do that. but they do that ALL the time. no one is made fun of except me. im always the target and its repetitive the whole night. Hannah and Zack came upstairs and gave me a hug and i told Hannah the reason why i was upset and she promised she'd make me feel more wanted.
Then after Hannah left, Jared wanted Zack to come over to his house for a while. I wanted to come to but he refused to let me. Zack said i could go and i said i'd ask my dad for a ride, but Jared gave this huge sigh as if he really didnt want me there. I got upset and did some things i shouldnt have....I threw my phone at his hand because he always makes the excuse, "guys night". thats every time i ask to do something with them!! i felt hurt and then he said that we're not really compatible... as in we're not alike enough to be friends.
My best friend, Hannah, tells me that he said our friendship is fried and that im too dramatic for him and she said, "soo does this mean you guys arent friends anymore?" and he txted back, "pretty much. :)" and she said, "so no more group parties on friday nights?" and hes all, "i guess so." and then he said everything has an end. I had never sobbed so hard, or for so long. I felt so sick to my stomach, I thought i was going to throw up.... I sent him this long apology text and told him i was sorry and he accepted... But i dont think its ever going to be the same anymore. What do i do to change that? :(