I know what it feels like
to be lying at night surrounded by complete darkness that fills your room, staring at the ceiling, and trying to block out all your painful thoughts. That time of night where everyone has gone to sleep, except for you, and the house is completely silent. That time of night where you can hear your heart beat faster and faster as it starts to race, while your eyes begin to fill with tears. When you start to feel the tightness in your chest and bite your lip, as you try to hold onto all your emotions. That time of night when you feel so completely alone, and like nothing could get any worse. When all you want to do is disappear and cry. When you hear your thoughts ringing through your ears, as everything you have held in that day starts to surface. When you lie there shaking, wishing you had someone to hold you, and that the pain would go away. That time of night where your sadness consumes you, and you become completely vulnerable. The time of night, when you are not only a danger to everyone around you, but to yourself as well.