racing thoughts, racing thoughts, all too real you're moving so fast now, I can't hold your image this image I have of your face by the window me standing beside you, arm on your shoulder a catalogue of images, flashing glimpses, then gone again
I AM NOT SOMETHING FOR YOU TO FIX. I AM NOT SOMETHING FOR YOU TO USE TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF. I didn't use much of the original format I just wanted the bit for the image but I am still crediting!!< 3
Constantly questioning whether I miss someone for them, or I just miss the attention. Do I miss being with them, or I do I just miss being with someone? Do I miss the feeling of their lips on mine, or is it just me wanting affection? Probably the latter.
I've realized that I miss infatuation. I miss having someone to obsess over. I miss having someone that excites me when I talk to them. I miss the feeling of pining. Instead, I'm stuck going through a stage where no one appeals. I want someone to be infatuated with. Or maybe I'm just guilty of romanticizing emotions.
Your mental wellbeing is so important... Please make sure you give yourself the self care you need, when you need it. Talk to someone if it's all too much. Make art. Take a long bath. Go shopping. Sit in bed all day and watch every season of Pretty Little Liars. Look after yourself.