I'm just going to vent to myself .
Your birthday is in two weeks. March 8, 2012. I made/am making you a powerpoint . But the thing is, it's been awkward lately. awkward the whole 2012 , pretty much . I miss last year. We were just so close. We might as well of been dating, that's how close we were. Now, you're too busy playing League of Legends, but you won't admit it. Every day I wait for you to talk to me. But instead, you're hanging out with a friend, or "doing homework" which you used to say you never did. Obviously you're just playing LoL , but why lie? Every. Single. Day. I sit in front of my laptop, refreshing my textfree, or waiting for you to go online on facebook. But it's almost as if you .. avoid me. You never talk to me online anymore. We never really talked in person, even though we talked a lot online. We were each others first kiss. I would skip after school programs to hang out with you for thirty minutes, hugging and doing other pda things. We'd do those things outside the band room, where not many people went. We said I love you to each other every night. Sometimes more than 10 times a day ! I was in love. Yeah, you were a whole grade older than me. But i was in love. I truly was. I miss you so much. It's going to be so awkward on your birthday. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate you, yet I love you. You're my first real love. Every second i spend not talking to you is just plain torture. I can't concentrate on my homework, and my grades are dropping. I just can't think without you with me. But i guess you're just like everyone else, huh ? You pick me up, make me fall for you, and then drop me. One day, I'll learn. For now ? I'll just keep falling </3
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