Hey there, yep.. im not pretty so you are probably gonna look right past me. Its okay, im used to it. Its just that now you will never know they real me. Youll never know how much i hate my life. Youll never know that i hate most of my family. Youll never know how hard it is for me to find a true friend. Youll never know that i think of killing myself or running away almost every day. Youll never know that whenever i come out of my room, i somehow get in trouble so i just stay in there whenever im at home. Youll never know that i completely hide my feelings because if someone asks whats wrong i will burst into tears. Youll never know why i dont talk in class. Youll never know how much my dad screams at me & makes fun of me for no reason. Youll never know that sometimes i just sit in my room and cry and cry and cry. Youll never know that i have major trust issues. Youll never know that i think everybody, even my family, hates me. Youll never know that when i dont get out of bed & skip school, its because i dont want to have to deal with everything. Youll never know that i always feel forgotten. Youll never know that my parents fight all the time. Youll never know that sometimes i spell whole words completely backwards and wont even notice it, but im too scared to tell anybody. Youll never know that my aunt helps me get through this by telling me how good my future can be. Youll never know that i have a few close friends (alex, tiarra& lauren) that dont even know about half this stuff, yet they still get my through all of it. Youll never know how i can feel all this on the inside, yet smile and act like nothings wrong on the outside. Youll never know how much it takes to stick though all of this. Youll never know that im running on a little bit of hope and i pray that someday, my life will get better.
cheergirl11