First time I've been on here in over 2 years and everything has changed so much. I don't even know how to use this site anymore haha. Looking back at my old quotes is bringing back so many memories, and it's making me feel all sorts of things that I don't want to feel. I had so many friends on here as well, where did you all go?! I wonder if they're all happy now. It'd be nice if they were :-)
Every ridge, every bump, every cut, very scar just a daily reminder of how weak and worthless you are It's the only way out though and we all know it's true, no one will understand what it's like to be you To be feeling so sick of living each day, To be trying your hardest to fight it all away but it's not going anywhere because it's stuck in your mind Alone in your room is the only place to hide but that's when the voice start to torture you they won't leave you alone, you can't block them out and he appears out of no where and stares Stares until you're scared to move you're not sure what he's going to do you're not sure what he's capable of; you could end up dead but no one will believe you though because "it's all inside your head"
you see, the thing is I love you. I've loved you for a long time but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what you'll think. I'm afraid of what you'll say. I'm afraid of what everyone else will say. But most of all I'm afraid that you don't feel the same way and I'll make a fool out of myself by telling you how I really feel. I don't know if what you've been saying to me recently has been true, or if you're just saying it to make me feel better about myself. I don't know if the signs you've been showing towards me are just because we're close friends. I don't if when you're saying 'I love you' to me you actually mean it, or if you're just being friendly. I don't know how you'd react if I told you I was serious when I say that 'I love you too'. I'd love to see inside your mind so I could tell your real feelings for me without having to ask you, I'd love for you to say that you love me for real and I'd love for you to be mine. I'd love for us to cuddle up and watch films. I'd love for us to kiss in the rain. I'd love for us to walk along the beach, hand-in-hand, and watch the sunset. I'd love for us to be together, forever. But none of this will ever happen though. And it kills me to say that we're just friends.