STOP RIGHT THERE.
Put down the blade. Don't go near those pills or that bottle.Take your fingers out of your throat.I know you might be hurting, but seriously, there is better ways of coping with it.
I know you see lots of these quotes, telling you about how perfect you are, but this is different...
I'm not here to tell you how perfect you are. I'm here to tell you what your doing is silly. What your doing to yourself is just going to cause more problems- not just to yourself, but to others...and since you've read this far on, you must make me a promise... quit whatever it is your doing. You are made to be strong enough to cope with whatever life has planned for you. You can change your future, you just need to put the effort in. You can't just expect to wake up one morning and everything will be better. because it won't be. so get up and do something about it. no one or nothing can make it better but you. Not the pills, alcohol or whatever it is you do. Be your own hero, inspire yourself. please, just try.