nobody will read this,
but i just need to vent it somewhere. i have an ex boyfriend. and i havent seen him since we broke up 2 months ago. yesterday i saw him for the first time since then at my friends beach party. yes ive moved on but he was my first real boyfriend. and there will always still be feelings for him in my heart. yes i have someone who i have a "thing" with, but just seeing my ex boyfriend yesterday killed me. i was literally in my best friends arms in tears. right in front of him. it was probably one of the hardest things for me. i think he noticed but he didnt say one thing. it hurt so much. i just wanted to be back in his arms again. and what made it worse was he was RIGHT there, but he hates me anyways, so theres no point. i want him back so bad. i have no idea what to do. help <|3