This is long but I wanna tell you a little about my "love-life."
I want to make sure you girls know that there IS the perfect guy out there for you.
I've been cheated on over and over. One of my ex-boyfriends cheated on me with three girls. I've been treated horrible. I dated and went out with guys because I NEVER wanted to be alone. When I was single, I would talk to so many guys because I never felt beautiful or good enough. I lived in Connecticut when I was doing these things.
Now I'm living in Virginia. When I came to look at my current house, I didn't want to move here. I was nervous and scared that I would never find friends or a decent guy. I've lived here since February and I've had three boyfriends (including my current one.) The people who lived in the house before us were people who moved across the street into THEIR families' house. I live in a bedroom which was this boy Mat's. Mat's my boyfriend now and he lives across the street. I have so many friends and such a perfect guy.
Tonight Mat asked me if I wanted to do something and I said, "Sure, what is it?" He replied with, "Let's get a blanket and lay out and look at the stars." We did... It was amazing. My boyfriend is so crazy in love with me. He's perfect for me. He takes me out on dates, tells me that he loves me in front of his closest friends, holds my hand WHERE EVER we go.
We went to the fair last night and in front of everyone... He picked me up, twirled me around in his arms, and kissed me. He buys me flowers, he's romantic, and he makes sure that he tells me I'm beautiful and he loves me EVERY DAY.
Mat was a player and messed with girls' heads but with me, it was different. The only reason he played girls was because they hurt him but apparently with me, he wanted to take another chance. He's been hurt SO badly by girls.
He has wanted me since the day I moved in and sadly, for me; I didn't have feelings for him at the time. We started flirting but there were no feelings... well for me there wasn't... Then I started getting jealous when he talked to girls, I was always asking where he was, who he was with, etc. Now, we're almost going on 4 months together and it's been the best 4 months of my life.
I love him SO much girls!
There IS a perfect guy out there for you, you just need to stop searching. It'll hit you in the face sooner than you know it.
I know that I'm young but I'm in love. I never thought I'd be in love with Mat but I am and sometimes it's a pain but I wouldn't want it any other way.
ampxoxoxo