It's so weird to think that this year is almost over. My sophmore year only has 2 more weeks left. So much has happend over this past year, i've changed and gone through so much. I lost my virginity this past summer at a party. I was drunk and so was he, I don't remember it. Well, his name is Carter. Carter and I weren't exactly together, but he wanted to be. I made a mistake having s*x with Carter that night, but a few months later, me and Carter had s*x again, during christmas vacation. That was not a mistake. He showed me what it was really like to feel cared for, but I still refused to go out with him. I know it seems weird, refusing to be with someone, and committing to someone, but perfectly fine to be intiment with them. Me and Carter, well that never really went anywhere, besides a few random hookups. But what really put me through stuff this year was Jake. Me and Jake had been good friends since freshmen year. He's funny and goofy, and just an all around good time. Me and Jake went to our school Semi formal together, as friends. Little did I know it could possibly lead to more. I didn't want to make the same mistake i made with Carter, with Jake, so I did nothing with him, and tried to figure out my feelings, which I was convinced I did not have. Me and Jake were inseperable. But it wasn't untill I told him about Carter, that things took a turn for the worse. On Valentines day he cheated on me with a freshmen girl named Kelsey. I don't blame her, she didn't know we were together, but there is no excuse for him. In spite of anger, that weekend I hooked up with a senior named Jason. Jason and I are still friends, and he is probably one of the chillest guys ever. And a few weeks after that, I hooked up with Carter. A few months go by, and I am still angry at Jake, I don't know how I could have made it through without my bestfriend Matt. Flash forward to May 5th, 3 days before my birthday. Jake was drunk and texted me really hurtful things, and the next day called me to apologize, but later said I deserved everything he said to me. On May 7th (day before my birthday), I got a text from my friend Maddie telling me that Jake had been spreading rummors about me, and when I confronted him told me to shut up and not to talk to him. And Carter has been telling me since this time last year that he wants to be with me. This year I learned that sometimes happiness is right before your eyes.
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