Diaries of an Anorexic
Chapter 2
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Dear Diary July 26, 2010, I decided not to go with laxatives. I was going to but Lex’s (my sister) friend, Grace. She was hospitalized and almost killed from taking them. I didn’t want death. I just wanted to lose weight. I’ve barely eaten since 20th and if I did eat I just threw it all up! I am so proud! I’ve lost 5 pounds since the 22nd! I guess that’s good. I don’t know that much about weight loss though. I know weigh 103 pounds!! I think that is really good but Cal (my ex) texted me and said I was fat. So I’m going to try and lose more!
Dear Diary July 27, 2010, With cheerleading it’s really hard to not eat. I’ve devised a plan. I will eat before practice and that’s it. Then I will try to puke it back up afterwards. I’ve gotten down to 101 pounds that is amazing. But I think it’s still too fat.
Dear Diary July 31, 2010, This whole anorexia thing is starting to scare me a little. Grace was hospitalized for the 3rd time. I’m getting kind of scared. What if I end up in the hospital? I put back on 3 pounds. I’m back up to 104 pounds. I went on a small vacation. We left the 28th and got back today. My mom made me eat!! I hate her. I told her I didn’t like the food and I would eat when we got back to the hotel but she made me eat! I hate her soooo fuucking much!!
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