I've recently leared for myself that,
Cutting is an addiction.
The first time you do it, the cuts are small, not too deep. Then, the harder it gets, the more stressed out you become, you reach for the blade. You cry so hard staring at the blade, telling yourself you shouldnt do it, you cant. Those words dont mean a thing, not a single thing. You pick up the blade anyway and you drag it against your skin as it releases all the pain and all the stress you hold inside. Some people get high or get drunk, you on the other hand hurt yourself, but thats not the way you see it. You see it as an escape, after that cut everything inside you is released. Its a way to get away from everything
and you know what else
You cant stop