Let this be a lesson,
I've know this one guy for over a year or two now. From the second I met him, he instantly gained my attention. I don't know what it was, but he just intrigued me. Just simply being around him put me in a better mood even today. Back then I would deny it, but I know now that I was begining to evolve a crush on him. It was that kind of crush where you kind of just push it to the back of your head and never really allow it to evolve because you knew there was no chance. I thought it would've been a miracle for us to ever get together. He and his girlfriend had been together for two years. Two years. There was no way in h/ll did I see them breaking up; not for a split second. I never told anyone about my tiny crush, so naturally no one knew about it. Not my friends, not my best friends, not my family, no one. It wasn't until May of 2013 when I heard he and my best friend began dating. Don't get me wrong, I was completely happy for them. In fact, I shipped them so hard. It's just I still had that small crush on him and I would get jealous of them being together sometimes. Of course, I never let it get to me because then I'd react out of context so I just would do something else to get my mind off of it. Then summer rolled by as did the first month of the school year and he joined our lunch period end of September/beginning of October. That's when I found out he and my friend broke up. She kind of just dissapeared from all of our lives when she got to college. Anyways though my crush and I were friends, we weren't all the close being that the previous year we had no classes and when we did hang out, it was always with a group of people ten people or more. We got really close the next few months. He told me about the struggles throughout his life and I told him mine. We talked almost everyday during holiday break on the phone for two hours plus. I constantly looked foward to those phone calls throughout the break. Then he and my other best friend came over my house to watch a marathon of out favorite show. We cuddled practically the entire night. It wasn't until I had my head in his lap while he stroked my hair and kissed my head when I realized how much of an impact he made on my life in just a few months. It was then when I realized how sad I would be without him in my life. It was then when I realized I wanted him to be mine, and only mine. He left that night, though not without kissing me on the cheek. I was on cloud 9. Even then I thought all his gestures were friendly just in order to protect myseld. The next day was New Year's Eve and we were texting all day. Yes, we did that for the past week, but it was different on this day. He kept sending my long messages, telling me of how much of a good person I am and how much I've impacted his life. He left me speechless each time. He called me ten minutes after midnight to wish me a happy new year. We talk for four hours straight.We played the game questions and half way through, that's when he asked me. He asked me to be his girlfriend. Never in a million years would I imagine this to happened, but it did. Though the signs seem obvious now, you don't really notice them when your in that position. So pretty much, don't doubt yourself when it comes to love because it could be happening, but you wouldn't even know it.