I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
( PLEASE READ AND HELP)
Today, he gave me a reason to not trust him anymore. He knows of everything i've been through, and he knows that it was very hard for me to ever trust another boy.
On New Years Eve, he told me he had already made plans with his best friend.
I didnt mind.
Today i found out that he wasnt only with his bestfriend...
He was with her.
HER
The one that almost ruined our realtionship a while back.
He knows that i found out and this was pretty much our convo.
He was also drinking that night. But he claims he wasnt totally intoxicated.
Him: we are just friends, i swear to you. i didnt have a choice because you know that _____ is friends with them. i didnt tell you because i knew it would hurt you. I hope you know that nothing happened. i wouldnt do that to you.
Me: But you know i dont like you being with her. She ruins everyones reltionships, you know how she ruined my friend ____'s 2 months ago. It took alot for me to trust you after everything ive been through. i dont just love you, youre my bestfriend and you changed me so much for the better.
Him: WE'RE JUST FRIENDS
Me: friends or not, shes that one girl that makes me cringe and cry at night. if shes more important, then go be with her. i cant trust you anymore...
Him: Then ill do my best to regain your trust.
Me: no, stop. really , dont put yourself through the trouble, its not worth it anymore.
Him: it is because youre worth it ...
Him: i'll call you later ,
I dont know whether to believe him or not. i dont actually know if hes actually sorry. He means the world to me because he literally saved me when i a total wreck 10 months ago. He made me have hope in love again. But i dont know what to believe, this happened to me before in my last terrible, abusive realtionship, i dont want it to happen again. i dont know if he actually even cares .. or loves me. i truly need advice