Vent.
This is kinda long...
Let me start off by saying that no one is going to care enough to read this or will even bother to say anything about it. Just reading it is showing me you care. So please…
Anyway.
I don’t understand guys.
They have all said the same basic thing about myself
When it comes to looks, they say that I’m cute. Pretty. Beautiful. Apparently, I’m good looking to these people. Most of them don’t even say it to my face.
Then. They all say that I have such a wonderful personality. I’m nice, I listen well, I’m fun to be around, I’m chill, and I’m funny.
If I’m as great as they say I am, then why don’t any of them make a move? Why don’t they try to be more than friends with me?
My last relationship was wonderful. How that ended is a long story I won’t go into. But in the long run, he left me. Why would he do that? I was the love of his life, his one and only. He had been through so much in his life, he learned what love truly was. I was the one. But he let me go. You never let go of the person you want to marry. Ever. That’s just stupid if you do. But he is a stupid person. And I love him…
Society has told me who I have to be. And I get so down about it. I don’t think I’m as great a person as people say I am.
When I look in the mirror, I don’t like what I see. It’s gotten to the point that I don’t think I’m beautiful. If someone compliments me, I can’t accept it.
Day in and day out I’m judged and unliked by numerous people for reasons that are logial, or are unrexistant. It’s just stupid…especially when I don’t do anything to anyone except be nice to them and treat them how I want to be treated.
I’m nice to them, I compliment them on how they look. If something is wrong, I make an effort to find out what’s going on and see if I can do anything to help.
I do this in hopes that someone will do the same for me. But what do I get in return? Negativity and things that bring me down and make me feel worse.
Sometimes, I feel like giving up. But I know I can’t do that. I’m just tired of living. I want things to get better. It’s been months and I’m tired of living an unhappy life. I want to be happy again. And I will be one day.
I just need time to heal.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I love you. You’re wonderful.
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