I miss you so much.
I don't know what I am going to do with out you. I want to act like I don't need you, I want to act like you were a waste of my time. But the truth is, the time I was with you was the time that I best spent. I remember everything. I remember how you would come over every friday and bring some movies. We would cuddle and watch movies together. I remember when I said that Micheal Myers was my favorite Killer so you brought some Jason movies over to prove me wrong. I remember laying on my bed together with my head on your chest. You would rub my back and we would talk about our future. You said that you would never date anyone again if our relationship ended. You said that you could see us together for a long time. We planned how we were going to decorate our house and what we would name our dog. We planned how many kids we would have. Did I believe this? Not really. But I wanted to. So I made myself. I remember Halloween night when I wanted to go trick or treating but I stayed home with you. We watched movies. Your family doesn't believe in holidays so you answered the door for trick or treaters at my house. I remember how happy you were to see that little girl in her costume, saying "trick or treat". I remember how happy your eyes looked when you walked in. I remember how you sat on top of me and tickled me for an hour staright because you found my tickle spot. I denied that I was ticklish, because I think I just wanted you to tickle me again. You made me sit outside with you to wait for trick or treaters. It was cold but I loved sitting there with you. You had to leave and we were sitting outside, I was on your lap and I told you I didn't want to get up. You said you didn't want to either. After a moment of silence you looked at me and said "Well, you can kiss me while we wait. Unless you don't want to kiss me or something. Do you want to kiss me?" Even typing this is making me start to cry. I remember you coming over to my house at 10am. I would just be getting out of bed and you would talk to me until your throat went dry. I loved it. I remember once, when you opened the freezer, a bunch of ice cubes came pouring out and I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants. I remember how we would lay one my bed together and I would put my head on your chest and wrap my arm around you waste, one day you said, "You know, everytime you put your arm around me like that I get a chill. I love it too." I sighed. I was so comfortable with you. I remember when you came over you and your dad got into a fight the night before, you were really sore because you worked out to hard, and you were sad. You limped up stairs to my bed room. I asked you if you needed a break from us you told me that you didn't want that. Everythingwas good then. I remember you laying down and me sitting right next to you complianing about some of my "friends" You listened. You were the only one who ever listened to me. We bonded then. My Mom came upstair later and we talked. You told her that I was your life. You said that without me you are nothing. I remember the way you would hug me. They way I would never want to let go. I remember when we broke up. You came to my house and you talked to my friend the whole time. Before you left you gave me a hug. You burst out crying. I will never forget the look on your face. Then I felt really important to you. We got back together. Now we are done. I'm waiting for you to text me and say you miss me and that you want to go back. Even a facebook message. I just want to know that you haven't forgot about me yet. I miss you a lot. I love you a lot. I feel like I love you more now. I hate what you did to me but if you asked for me back, I wouldn't hesitate to say yes. But now we are done, I spent a wonderful four months with you. We have so much in commomn and we really connected. I know I wasn't imagining that. You felt it too. Maybe we will get together later on in life, but until then, I'll miss you.
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