unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
Today.. Aubree and I and her mom found out Aubree's 5 months pregnant.. I'm having a baby girl.
I have a quote explaining more.. Read it. I'm so nervous..
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
The picture is up. /: Go to my profile..
And i'm trying as hard as I can.
I got Aubree a promise ring. I love her so much.

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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
Friday is my first day.. I'm dreading it... Terribly.

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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
//: I'm trying..

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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
): I know and I'm so mad at myself for not being able to make myself happy anymore.. I hate me..
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
I feel different about that. Maybe you're right but I'm not sure.. because I don't want to be like this.. I don't want to be miserable all through senior year.. This is my year, I waited for so long to get to be a senior and now it's my chance.. but it's not going to be great like It was supposed to be.. it's going to be hell.. People know that he was drugged, i'm still being set on to the blame for not jumping in and grabbing him when I should have.. I'll get that, all through out the year. I would do everything, literally anything to drown out this pain that I wake up to every single day. I want to look at my beautiful girlfriend and be thankful for what I have but it's impossible now.
I drank a few the other night and that's the last thing I want to do. and I sound stupid for saying I don't want to do it, but i do anyways.. but NOBODY understands how desperate I am to take away this pain.. I never had a son, but I feel like I lost blood.. I feel like I lost my brother, It hurt's just as bad.. We were close.. Hang out every day.. I don't want people to say that Micah and I were gay for each other, because we have been best friends, we've been together when we both got in trouble, we've been through so much and we would go to Prom together with Aubree and Keely. He loved Keely.. It's terrible and I think that If i wasn't here to watch him go down.. to hear him yell out like he did, I would have a better time coping with the fact he's gone and that he drown because I would tell myself, I wasn't there,, but I believe that he went quickly.. But i watched it happen, and I watched him suffer.. And I won't forgive myself.

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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
): I haven't been on..
Tell me.. What can I possibly do.. Time's not healing anything.. I haven't been able to see Aubree... I feel like dying.. I am going to the professional tomorrow but I need someone to talk to again tonight. ):
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sparklylaughter · 1 decade ago
woah. well thank you(: we do try our best to not make the story all over the place. LOL.
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
I know, and it gives me at least a little bit of comfort in this situation but i'm questioning myself, how didn't i notice that? He told me he felt loopy and not himself.. I'm so angry at myself, not for the fact that he's gone but because I keep thinking about it day and night over and over again, finding a reason to blame myself that he's gone.. and I always find one little thing to make me feel like his death is my fault and I can't even control it.. it happens, every single time. I stress myself out... I am trying so hard not to get in to drinking, but I just want something so terribly bad to numb this horror pain.. The anti depressants aren't doing what they should be doing.. and I panic every single day.. I feel like it's just the same day I wake up to and it's going to happen all over again.. This really messed me up, and I can't say it enough to how much I hate myself. I haven't seen aubree since out 2 year and 6th month which is on the 11th, I turned my phone off but I told her that if she can't get a hold of me to come over and she said alright.. but she hasn't came over.. she knows how this is taking one hell of a toll on me and I told her if I get to the point like this, I don't want to be around the girl I love and who I need more than anything because I don't want to say the wrong thing or push her away on accident because I'm so depressed, because I love her and I need her.. she's my world, but I can't be around her when I'm like this.. I just can't.
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
Did you see what I put up last?
their charging (guy) for murder... for drugging Micah up.
I don't know what to feel.. I haven't left my house in 5 days.. I turned my phone off. I've been nothing but depressed and NOTHING is helping.. not even Aubree.. I hate myself so god damn much. ):
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neonpandaxoxo · 1 decade ago
Hii ! :) I don't usually do this, but I've noticed you like reading stories on witty and was wondering if you could check mine out? My current story is called 'Perfect.' I used to have so many readers on witty but then I took a break & I'd love to get them back. All I ask if that you read the first few chapter or even just the first chapter and tell me what you think! If you like it, great! Keep on reading! If not, thanks for giving it a read anyways. It would mean the world to me. Thanks so much ! xo
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
I've been really down lately..

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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
Your help and support means so much to me, you have no idea on the things that you've said to me in the past have helped me through some rough nights of mine.
Thanks.

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forgottenlover · 1 decade ago
Thank you! That seriously means a lot. You're the only person to actually encourage me(:
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FabStories · 1 decade ago
-Drew looks at me, can't he tell that I can't breathe-
I am totally craving Taylor Swift's music. Those lyrics were from the song, "Teardrops On My Guitar." There's even a 'Drew' in that song!
Enough of my babbling. I am here to proudly announce that another chapter of, "Living Death," is up!
- Thank you!
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FabStories · 1 decade ago
Okay, this time I really mean I'm going to end Living Death. But I can't leave you hanging like that, so this is the last chapter. Yes, I know the story was short, but I hoped you enjoyed it.
NAW JK. Got you again. (;
There are still more chapters after this one!
Enjoy!
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unforgetableCaleb · 1 decade ago
It's hard.. I went down to the memorial.. I went down there with Gage. It's amazing on how many people went down there, even adults. All people that Micah has touched.. It's unbelievable.. People were sharing stories.. Brought pictures.. Brought down more roses and flowers to set down by the tree.. Not it's surrounded by a bunch of picture frames of pictures of Micah and others.. It's such an amazing feeling you get in your heart when you see someone you love pass away and see how many people come and share the stories of him and how many he's touched, it's amazing.
Micah's dad came down to the memorial as well, he wasn't close with Micah, but still.. He's family.. He walked up to me and was like, "can i pull you to the side for a bit.." and I went with him and what he said, tugged my heart a little bit.. He was like "I'm so proud of both of son's.. I couldn't have asked for any better of kids as I have. You've been been part of this family for quite some years now.. Don't ever feel like you aren't part of it because Micah's gone.. You're strong and you were my sons best friend.. Thank you for all you've done for him.. I can only imagine the smile on his face if he could see all you've done. You're a good young man and don't forget that."
It's so nice knowing that I'm still part of their family.. That they don't think it's my fault he's gone.. ):
On the 3rd of August, i don't know what i'm going to do besides cry.. ):
I miss him, beyond the moon and back.. It's like I lost my family.. It's so hard to cope with..
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FabStories · 1 decade ago
AHHHH.
Hey. :( You may know me as the author of "Living Death." (Actually, you do.) But, I need your help on story ideas! Please take a look on my profile for my latest quote, and pick between two epic story ideas. I will write the one that wins after I finish "Living Death!"
MWAHH. I love youu~
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fakesmile8 · 1 decade ago
thanks(: so many people call me a , , , fake, worthless, and so on and then u have guys :/ ughhh its just some people like me but they only stay for the good..i feel as if i have no real friends anymore :/ u can deff be my friend and possible bestfriend<3 i could use it(: u seem super sweet and chill!!!!(:
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quotingjenna · 1 decade ago
bleh... idk...
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