"DO YOU LIKE ME?"
I wanted to tell him yes, that I really liked the way his eyes sparkle when he laughs,
or the fact i want to smack him upside the head when he trys to shove things down my bra.
I wanted to tell him that I wouldn't mind hanging out with him alone,
because I'm not afraid of just being myself.
I wanted to tell him, that matt and him are the only guys that have seen me in my swimsuit,
or that I take risks when I'm with him.
I wanted to tell him that I loved the fact that he's seen me pigging out on cookies and still denied that I was fat.
I wanted to tell him that he's seen me cry, seen my mother scream at me and still told me it was gonna be okay.
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I wanted to tell him how much it meant to me that he told me I wasn't annoying,
but I didn't tell him any of that.
Because I want him happy and if he knew I felt like that about him,
he wouldn't be happy, b
ecause he's with my cousin and I'm his friend.
So I won't make him choose and I'll just let him
BE HAPPY
sometimes being 'the friend' sucks.
don't jock since this is just me venting.