if I could tell you one thing, it would be how sorry I am. I'm sorry for pushing you away, for being too protective, for being scared that you didn't love me, for being afraid that someone else would come steal you away, for being too pushy, for not fully trusting you, for getting mad at you for the littlest things, for being sad all the time, for being worried that you would eventually forget about me, for getting upset, for not listening to you, for not telling you everything that was on my mind, for absolutely everything I did wrong & most of all, I'm sorry for being scared that you would eventually leave me. but I guess that happened in the end anyways. & now I'm just plain sorry . . . I wish I could take back all of my stupid mistakes and we could start over from the beginning. but unfortunately, I know I messed up too badly for you to ever forgive me. you have no idea how much it hurts knowing I ruined everything between us - our relationship, our friendship, everything we had together. & what brings the most pain, is knowing I can never get any of it back. </3