Am i some kind of monster, some kind of monster you cant handle in your life, wish you could have made a good wife with one lover, but you just couldnt, drugging on the fact that life brings you down, but you never really thought of what pain you could put in my life. Now im fked up, always been fked up, from the very start of my life to the very sharp end of my knife. I got the bottle on my dresser a night to caress her wanting the love you never gace me. Seeing how my hommies put their mama down its like they aint care bout their frown, n i tell em love your mama before she outta town. I dream about you, scared to call you my mom, if you loved me things would be better, i wouldnt be in this situation, drunken and fk outta my mind, but i cant help myself, I feel closer to ou, but who's fault is that? I think its mine for wanting to be somewhat of a crime just looking for you, you screwd me over ruined m life, total failure, i could have went better but i lost my forever in a car accident south of the river, gave me the shivers and i cried up a rover, supposed to make me stronger but i felt all alone. Jack D helped with the pain but only for a minute til' i realized i wasnt in it, I was lost in a world but safe to call it m own, one where she existed, holding my baby forever until i was sober, right now i just want a kiss from you mom, Im 17 n i cant find no love, i dont want their love i just want to hear you say "I fked up, i miss you, I want you bacl", but the truth probablly is you dont even remember me, with more then 15 sibs i aint see you caring for me just fkin up with some dude for cheap deals on drugs . So ima keep on livin my life, ups and downs, always seem to get around, but i was born alone no love from you, i will die alone, fk that, still NO LOVE.
-me
JacobbV09