i just can't let this go. why is it so hard to forget you? you're always there-in the back of my mind. there never really was something between us at least never something official...announced. but i feel as though i've lost my first love even though you never really loved me back, or if you did you kept your lips sealed.. and me in agony.
every.night.i.thought.tirelessly.of.you. one day i woke up, realizing it just wasn't going to happen. i tried to get over it- it took time, lots of iti had to forget your blue eyes, your smile that never failed to tug at the corners of my lips.i had to forget your charm, your annoying quick wit. i had to forget about you...
not an easy task.
eventually, it worked. you stopped coming to my mind every single 11:11 that came around, every shooting star i saw pass by, every eyelash
THEN you crashed back into my life you made a wreck of the walls i built; demolishing them in to practically nonexistence. with a rush you came to me, blue eyes twinkling smile intoxicating. voice...the wishes flooded back, the thoughts invading my mind.then you stepped back again.
i'm forced to start building up those walls start pushing you out of my mind. but how long is it going to last?
when those walls are down, my heart is in your hands.the most vulnerable place for it to be.
(((((yeahh, kind of long, but had to put that out there)))))