A FEW WEEKS B ACK;;
I sat in my room with my step fathers loaded hand gun
& decided and undecided weather or not to to shoot myself.
I know its a selfish thought, but I was just done with the pain
the cutting + the death of my sister + the anger + life in general.
A few hours before the major breakdown hit me I made a
quote on here about my thoughts and as I went to pull the trigger
something made me stop and look at my laptop, made me
look at that quote and its comments. Some were really nice
& touching, But there was one that really stood out. It read:
"If you're gonna do it, just do it.
Kid just wants attention.."
I was taken back for a second by it, I'm well aware how
pathetic I sounded in it, but this person didn't know me?
didn't know my struggles? Didn't know that I was a college captain,
Didn't know I was 16, Didn't know that my family and friends
would have never expected me to have thought like that,
Didn't know that I love skittles & say epic way to much.
This person didn't know me at all, yet they judged me as an
attention seeker when I was at personal all time low.
However I want to say thank you.
My haters have always been my main motivators.
You prompted me to kill myself, So to prove a point I
never will. I've never listen to heartless people before
why start know!?
P.S thank you to people who where nice.
I owe all my life ♥