I wonder what life would be like if I was an emotionless, cold person instead of an empathetic, caring person. Would that make you happier? Forget you, would it make me happier? Would i forget about you, and you being with her, and move on to someone that doesn't play games? Would people respect me? Would i be cared for in return? If you really sit and think about it, the only people that get cared for when they are broken up with or maybe in some sort of drama regarding friends are the ones that don't have enough emotion and warmth to stand back up after being kicked down. Am i the only one that thinks the most popular girl gets treated like a princess when she is upset because if she doesn't, everyone else will pay hell? But me, the girl that is always there for everyone no matter what, when i am upset and listening to secondhand serenade or shinedown or linkin park or coldplay and crying my heart out and watching ghost whisperer, telling people my problems hoping someone will notice and pay mind to me, is left alone. I have been kicked when i was down so many times and i have stood back up so many times that i don't think i can stand any higher. What is there to do when you just aren't good enough, even though you do everything in your power to make everyone else happy and feel that warming good-enoughness. Please explain to me what is wrong with me. Why am i so lonely? If God is supposed to be my savior, then where is he today?