Nightmares and sweet dreams
9
I ended up having a great time with Marc.
We had so much fun. He ended up throwing up on one of the roller coasters. But all he did was laugh, he didn’t seem to mind. He smiled, saying he was fine, but ended up puking again. It was alot of fun though. I think I had so much cotton candy I won’t be hungry for the rest of the year.
“Soo.. I’ll see you tomorrow?” Marc smiled, his eyes shining against the moonlight. I looked down, thinking about my plans with Ryan tomorrow. I sighed and looked up at him sadly, looking into those amazing eyes of his.
“I wish I could.. But I can’t.. I’m so sorry, I have plans tomorrow. But maybe we can hang out this weekend?” I tried to smile cheerfully, I could see the disappointment in Marc’s eyes as he sighed, nodding slowly.
“Only if you agree to go to a family thing with me, it’ll just be my family, all we’ll pretty much do would be playing games, hanging out and eating. Maybe watch a movie. Is that alright with you? Since you made plans already without my consent.” He smiled teasingly, pulling me closer to him. I felt my face get red, but I don’t think he could tell under the moonlight. I looked up into his eyes, seeing his eyes shimmer, his slight smile, watching his face come closer to mine. He put his hand against my waist, very gently, and tilted my head up toward his with his fingertips against my chin. I blushed more, seeing him slowly close his eyes. Everything seemed to be in slow motion. I want to kiss you.. But I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I want to be with Ryan. One kiss, I want to think it wouldn’t hurt, but it would hurt.
I saw his mouth come closer to mine, feeling his light breath, he seemed afraid. He was holding back actually breathing, was he scared that I wasn’t going to kiss him? I felt him stop breathing, holding my breath and finally tilted his head to the side slightly, his lips even closer to mine now. I felt my eyes start to water as I pulled away from him, looking away toward the ocean, with the reflection of the moon against the waves. I heard Marc sigh, looking toward me but he could tell I was close to crying.
“Aidan, p-please don’t cry. I’m so sorry. I won’t try and kiss you again..” He tugged on my shoulder gently, making me look toward him. I collapsed into his arms, still fighting back tears as they slowly escaped my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I felt his arms wrap tightly around me as he stroked my hair gently, saying softly as I started to cry, “Everything’s alright.. Please Aidan, I don’t like seeing you like this. Please, I’m so sorry..”
I looked up into his eyes, seeing him looking so sad I forced a smile on my face, putting my hand up to his cheek gently. I started to stroke his cheek gently with the tip of my fingers as I started to actually smile for real. “Marc, today was amazing, but, I’m not ready for this. Please don’t be mad about that..” My smile faded as I choked out those last few words.
Marc nodded, helping me regain my balance as he smiled, forcefully, looking into my eyes once again. “It’s alright, I completely understand. We can be friends.” He grabbed my hand gently, squeezing it slightly as he kissed my cheek softly. “But I promise I’ll always be here for you. Hopefully we can be more someday, text me tomorrow. Alright?” He pulled away, smiling as I hugged him tightly, smiling slightly and nodding..