30Days 30Letters
Day 2 - your Crush (oh well I don't have a crush, so I'll write my boyfriend instead :P)
Dear Stan, when I first met you ,you were the weird guy who popped out of nowhere and called me "angel" or "Princess" . I didn't know your name back then, I couldn't pronounce it properly either . I thought you were kind of cute even if you refuse to admit .haha. Even if we've never met I feel like I know you :) But 2 summers ago , we hardly talked about getting to know eachother. I didn't know what you DIDN'T like and you didn't know what I DIDN'T like either. All we knew is what we liked to do, what kind of stuff we prefer but never the negatives. We usually just praised eachother through MSN and never insults . It was weird but I felt like it was perfect. We were just friends back then even if we said "I love you" through text messages and through MSN. I don't know if you're reading this or not but..I'll admit I stalked you on your old facebook account and Wondered if every girl in your friend list was either your ex,your girlfriend or a girl from school you like though,I never told you what I thought because you might think I'm freaky for doing that.
Anyway, I remember when we group-chatted on MSN with my friend Hailey :) She said she thinks you're cool and nicknamed you "PRAISING GUY" . and you were on holiday in Egypt that time, I thought I wouldn't talk to you for two weeks but we did anyway :) and I loved how we texted alot when you first got your "OFFICE" job :) It made me like you even more . But when you told me that you & your dad didn't get along well and you left home I felt bad. I didn't want you having problems with your family. You started being moody and reccomending me sad songs like "On fire" by switchfoot . yes, I remember the song to be honest I like it. When you told me that you could come here in a month on January 2010 (you were supposed to come on february) I told you I'd ask my mum.. but you seemed mad at me so when she got back from her trip with Andy , I asked her if you could stay but I told her 'MY FRIEND IS COMING HERE NEXT MONTH" . She said "Yes,sure that's alright. but only for 2 weeks" But i felt guilty because you were mad at me .. and you had some problems . And I felt guilty that I didn't tell my mum that the "FRIEND" visiting was a guy,which is you.
After a few months when we stopped talking, I moved on from you and met this guy near me. I didn't like him much, But I wanted to distract myself from you , I couldn't but I tried. It worked then you suddenly went online as "DANTE" , I wanted to know who this person was so I clicked on the msn window.. and i saw your email, It was you. I suddenly felt weird inside,guilty too. because I didn't tell you that my mum actually agreed . so I ignored you until you went offline. Until after a Week you started talking to me again. I was nervous, I didn't want to talk to you, but I didn't want to be rude ignoring you, So I tried to talk anyway . you've changed. you weren't the guy I thought I knew anymore . I felt insulted when you asked if I was on a diet -for words. I wondered if you hated me or just wanted to talk to me because you were bored. Few weeks later, we got along again, we were friends. I could tell you almost anything. Until you told me you liked me. I didn't know what to do . I liked talking to you but I didn't want to ruin our friendship. But I told you it would take me time to like you back and I did like you I was just too scared to admit .
On June 6,2010 :) at around 11PM :) you asked me to be your girlfriend . the Distance bothers me But it was just distance anyway . I could talk to you anytime I want :) after that day, we had an argument. our First argument.. I tried to apologize but I didn't know what I said that made you so mad . I didn't know you were short-tempered yet.so I wasn't careful with what I say. I think the first time I heard your voice on the phone was around july. I was shy to talk to you on the phone, I didn't know what to say. And to tell the truth, I like your voice I didn't want to hang up at all.
on the 14th of July, You said something that I took sensitively. and you apologized :) you told me to call you on the phone and there, you apologized . I love the way your voice sounded that way .. until someone ruined the moment so I had to hang up.
And now, through all the silly arguments we had, I'm glad it's been like 3 to 4 months now :) I don't regret anything and I'm so happy you're the one I fell for!
I love you Stan :)
- Chii
ChiiTinkerbell