^&- i think i just made the worst mistake of my life;
he left me, he has a few times, we were the 'on&off' type. but he always came
back to me.. well i got sick of this, and the last time he left me, i fled, not giving
him another chance to break my heart.. it hurt, bad. i kept trying to move on,,
i met this guy, he made my heart skip a b e a t <3, he made me feel special, i had
s t r o n g feelings for him, yes i did. so we were friends for awhile; then he asked me that question, which changed my l i f e. i said 'yes'.. and now its been a month,
i do love him, yes, yes i do. but whenever i listen to a song, it reminds me of my e x.
my feelings for my boyfriend;;; aren't so close to my strong feelings for my e x. my e x, he lived across the country though. but we stayed strong. now, i don't know what to do ? i cry myself to sleep every night, i can't listen to music, it all reminds me of him. i can't do this anylonger. i miss his voice, i miss staying up late on the phone with him.. but then i have that fear; that maybe my minds telling me this, and if i leave my boyfriend, for my e x. he'll be nothing like i was telling myself, and then ... my life would just head downhill. i'm choosing my boyfriend, he would never hurt me.. but im still confuesed.. and tears stain my face , pain ; is all i know right now.