the feelings i'm feeling,
are getting hard to bare,
i wonder if i scream for help,
would you be there?
i shut and lock my door,
and throw away the key,
i dont hear no one coming,
to try to come save me,
i make a slit,
and i begin to cry,
my bodys shaking,
as i wonder why?
why dont you love me,
and why aren't i beautiful,
why do i try to impress you so much,
when you only make me feel horrible,
there goes another slit,
this time it was deep,
tears no longer want to come out,
just the blood wants to seep,
why arent you here,
trying to save me,
in the beginning you said you cared,
and that you'd always need me,
what made you change your mind,
and make you walk away,
none of this would be happenin,
if you had only stayed,
the 3rd slice is the worst,
as i begin to scream,
this pain is so unbearable,
nothing i have ever dreamed,
i'm sobbing and screaming,
someones banging on my door,
i cant get up and open it,
i cant take this pain no more,
i have little strength,
to do one final slice,
i raise the knife up to my neck,
without thinkin twice,
someone runs in,
and grabs the knife from me,
suddenly i get so dizzy,
and its just to hard to see,
i wake up a few days later,
liein in a hospital bed,
my mother crys and says that if it wasnt for him,
i'd probably be dead,
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