Please take some time to read this... I found myself scribbling this down in class because somebody had annoyed me.
That person..
Who seems to make everything okay, and then you go back over things in your mind and its as if that person has never experienced reality.
You hate them for telling you lies, or what you think are lies because the person seems to be always happy, when they ask for help you don't respond because you hate them for painting this wonderful picture and then let it fall down, crash around you.
You're so concentrated on the hate and lack of care from this person, you shut yourself off from them.
Then the person begins to think you're ungrateful for the help and support and then they hate you. Despise you. Think you deserve what you're going through.
I'm sure they consider talking to you some times, making an effort, as do you.
But after everything, neither of you have enough courage.
You want to go back.
They want to go back.
Not going to happen.
You've built a wall you can't bring down by yourself.
And nobody is willing to help you because you were 'ungrateful'.