i want you to lay awake thinking about me
i want you to wonder where i am, why im not with you
i want you to want me like i want you
i want you to cry yourself to sleep thinking why im not there
this is getting so hard, i don't know why i am so miserable
i feel pathetic and broken
you don't even love me the same way you did before, i miss that
i miss the constant texting and talking for hours
i miss when you used to call me everynight and make me talk about your crazy day
what changed ?
i feel so lost, beause i don't know why i feel this way
is it me? is it you..i don't know what to do..
i need to focus on me anthony, i cant be thinking about you like this because ill go insane
i am insane..
i can't handle this all summer, i need someone to be there for me
you're not there for me, i dont want to sound crazy but its how i feel. im miserable.
why aren't you here right now, why don't you want to talk to me...
im not the most interesting person but i was before to you..
why did you or i change
why am i crying so much, anthony why aren't you here..
im done talking about it with you because you don't understand..you'll never understand
i love you too much if thats the case anthony, i could never be without
but, it seems as if i can't be with you either
its like im not even there sometimes to you..
you ignore me and you don't even notice, i can't help but think its my fault
you say im perfect, but why don't you want to talk to me anthony
im screaming to you and you can't even hear me
im not being dramatic
im gonna wait til you want me as much as i want you
i don't want to have to wait on you anthony, but i will if i have to
youre not listening to me at all.
i wish you could see this
i wish you felt the pain i do right now as i type this out
i have to beg you to talk to me, when we do you don't even listen..why.
this isn't fair anthony, why don't you need me like i need you...
i've fallen too hard, i was afraid of this.
its my worst fear anthony, and im living it.
i hope this is just a phase, that i am going through
what do i need to do to get you to notice me...?
do i have to ignore you anthony? forget we're even together? do i have to fight with you to realize who i am?
do you even know who i am..because i don't even know
i do everything thinking about you
what im going to wear, do i look good enough to be standing next to you anthony?
i wonder if you think the same, i wish you could be me for a day
and wonder, think about you all day and wonder why you won't respond to me anthony
im confused..what did i do..
i can't handle this...
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