AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
There is no words to say to possibly take any pain from your loss away for you stop feeling this. Before my brother was killed in a car accident I never thought about what I believed, and when someone asked what my religion was I never had an answer because I didn't know.. Losing my brother was torturous and so is losing anybody in general. My brother and Caleb are the only two people I've ever had to lose in my life yet so far and I never opened up to anybody as much as I opened up to Caleb. I never thought about wanting to be with anybody for the rest of my life but I always thought about that with caleb. The way he would make me laugh, the way he said my name, his personality and his inspiring words and just how he moved was just enough to keep me wanting more.. I feel like I'm half dead and half alive.. I have two strings that are keeping me hanging on right now and If those snap I don't know what on this world is going to keep me sane. My family is my world and so is my daughter and my friends and if t wasn't for anyone of them, I would have lost myself. I do believe that someday I am going to reunite with Caleb and my brother. I'm going to see them and be able to hold them in my arms once more and never have to leave them again, and until that day there is always going be an empty space that not one person will be able to fulfill until I get so see their faces again. Death doesn't scare me one bit because I'm not going to be their alone.. I'm going to move on every single day at my own pace, nobody will tell me when I can and can't be missing either of them. Cry when you need to cry. Scream and yell when you need to. Don't hold any of it in. But you have so much support here and i'm sure where you are. Don't let go. And please know, if Caleb was here.. He'd be talking to you as much as he could, in the middle of the day and through the night. Don't give up.
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
You understand more than anyone right now. I know i didnt love him like you loved caleb, and i know we weren't as close as you were, but just to think that i will never see his smile, or bury my face against his chest, or tickle him until he pushes me off, it kills me. I have lost many people, as some people know, but like i suck at death. I believe in nothing so its all just blank to me, i want to know where he is and i want to be able to yell at someone for taking him away from me. I want to hug him and bring him back and tell him how sorry i am for anything bad i ever said about him. I want to hear him sing me silly songs he sang, and make fun of the fact he had to wear a speedo in water polo. I don't live near him, i live so far away, but i feel like hes still missing from me. The fact that he will never call me love again kills me. The fact that he will never say hey again kills me. And i just want to give up more than anything to be honest, because i didn't see a future much before him. He opened my eyes to what life could be, he was perfect in every way and i just want him back. I hate death so much and everyone says im strong and here i am sobbing unable to get off the floor because it hurts so bad. And im not strong at all. I'm just weak and i need him
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AubreeMae · 1 decade ago
People are telling you you're strong because you're able to stay alive and live the days that come to you. You don't have to be strong right now and don't think you have to be. You're allowed to be sad, You're allowed to cry and sob and scream and yelll. You need to grieve. It's been a month without Caleb and a month I couldn't have imagined having to live without him and I wait at night in bed waiting to hear the front door shut and for him to sneak into my room and him not wanting to wake me up but some how he always did. I don't have that shoulder I loved to cry on. I don't have that face I loved waking up to in the morning. I don't get to hear his voice and it's not even been two months since he's passed away and it hurts more than anything. It's been two years since my brother died and I remember the day after it happened and the pain that lasted so incredibly long.. And honestly, this might scare you but I'm being honest.. The second year of the absence is the hardest.. Because the first year you just keep begging and wanting them to come back through that door and to just come back home and by the second year, you know that it will never happen again and you have to accept it. All people have to say is how they're sorry for your loss and how to stay strong, but nothing is going to be able to stop the pain that you're feeling.. You just need to realize that you do have a support system.
And it doesn't matter if you've known him for a short amount of time or a long time, you knew him and it still hurts knowing that a life has been taken so soon.. The questions asked and that go unanswered, it's hard to cope with.

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BrokenTwilight · 1 decade ago
I'm so sorry</3 I'm just speechless. I've tried typing this over and over again, trying to find the right words.
I could never find the right thing to say, because I just can't understand your pain</3 You're stronger than you think you are, Dalton. <3 I believe that you can make it through this<3 Don't give up, the battle isn't over<3
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savvywinter · 1 decade ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. I have no words to help you in this situation and I know you've probably heard this a ton but I'm always here for you if you ever need anything and my prayers are with you<3 Stay Strong.
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CatLady101 · 1 decade ago
I'm so sorry for your loss... I wish I could say it better but I have no words for this terrible occurrence. Know he is always with you, and you are always with him.
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Beanie* · 1 decade ago
Awwwww, hun, im sosososososo sorry:( I feel terrible.
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Miluiel* · 1 decade ago
I'm so sorry, Dalton. </3 :'(
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
I just want him back :s
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Miluiel* · 1 decade ago
:( *hug*
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Live_life98 · 1 decade ago
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
Yes :s he died May 4th :s
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
i just want to die everything makes me think of him
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clearlytruthful · 1 decade ago
I'm so sorry, I mean it I truly do, my God bless him
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
:s Im shattered
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clearlytruthful · 1 decade ago
I can only imagine :,(
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
My facee is raw from crying, i just want it to be fake
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SparksFly34 · 1 decade ago
Hey Darling❤ wanna talk? I am here for you always. *hugs*
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JustAnotherWittyGuy18 · 1 decade ago
i thank you
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SparksFly34 · 1 decade ago
Talk to me hun.... Or even email me
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