A roller coaster, to say the least. You've... altered my perspectives on highschool crushes. you can make my entire day in less than 10 words. It scares me, really. I replay our conversations over and over again in my head, but I know you dont do the same. But maybe i dont know. How did you remember what i said from roughly a month ago? I cant believe you were listening. How does one smile, one friendly glance, set my heart on fire, and make my stomache swing? You can move my entire body from 10 feet away, just with your eyes. I dont love you, i cant claim anything like that. But i sure as hell like you. Way too much i suppose. and you dont feel the same. And man, it hurts like hell. I geuss were close again, but not like before. I can tell you, almost every thought of mine is about kissing you. I regret turning you down in my kitchen. Seriously... terrible mistake. And youll never read this, and maybe never know. but i have so much to say to you. I know itll screw with what we have, so ill keep my mouth shut for now. Im so scared Nick. youre gonna come over when marissas here. Which means i practically get to watch you hit on another girl, at my house. Maybe not though. Please, PLEASE, pull through for me. I need you to love me.
ali.
p.s. you never came.
shadybug4