A roller coaster, to say
the least. You've... altered my perspectives on
highschool
crushes. you can make my
entire day in less than 10 words. It scares me, really. I replay
our conversations over and over again in my head, but I know
you dont
do the same. But maybe
i dont
know. How did you
remember what i said from roughly a month ago? I cant believe you
were listening. How does one smile, one friendly glance, set my
heart on fire, and make my stomache swing? You can move my entire body
from 10 feet away, just with your eyes. I dont love you, i cant claim anything like
that. But i sure as hell like you. Way too much i suppose. and
you dont
feel the same. And man,
it hurts like hell. I geuss were close again, but not like
before. I can tell you, almost every thought of mine is about
kissing you. I regret turning you down in my kitchen.
Seriously... terrible mistake. And youll never read this, and maybe never
know. but i have so much to say to you. I know
itll screw with what we have, so ill keep
my mouth shut for now. Im so scared Nick. youre gonna come over when marissas here. Which means i practically get
to watch you hit on another girl, at my house. Maybe not though.
Please, PLEASE, pull through for me. I need you to love
me.
ali.
p.s. you never came.
