I spent my night distracting myself, and crying. I listened to all eight of your voicemails that i have saved on my phone, and i just smiled and cryed..... You don't realize how much you affect me. You don't realize how much i love you, how much i want to be with you, how i'd do anything to be in your loving arms right now.... But when i pull myself away from the situation, i realize that we have something most couples don't have. We have true love, and we both fight so hard to be together. Even if it means disagreeing sometimes, or getting insecure (me). But you know what? I love you with all of my heart. And we will make it through this baby. I will die trying....