i miss my old life.
i miss being happy, i miss laughing and smiling over nothing. i miss when the smallest things didn't make me cry. i miss my best friends that i've lost. i miss being super close with my mom, dad, and brother. i'm so tired of waking up and just wanting to disappear off the face of the planet. i hate life, i really do. there's nothing that makes me happy anymore. whenever i'm around people, i put on a show - that i'm happy and laughing. but the moment i'm by myself in my room, that's when my emotions come out. i hold everything in and don't let stuff show in front of people because i've been judged my entire life. i'm just sick of life, i'm sick of everything and everyone. i don't expect you to understand because nobody understands how i feel because i can't even put it into words. asdfghjklkjhgfdsdfghj.