The Diary of The Dead Girl
Chapter 1- Diana's Diary.
March 17, 2012
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all I've done. Its just too pathetic. I hate to be human. I hate to be so... so... the same. Same shape, same form. Every, every single day. I know it. I know its stupid and pathetic just to think this way. Especially not believing in God, and thinking I could be something else after this is over. I mean, just look at me. I'm huge. I'm just under 120lbs. I shouldnt be. I shouldnt weigh anything at all. I dont want to. I dont want to be here. I love all of you. I do. I just feel guilty for even being here, and its really scary for me to understand that soon, all of it, can be over. I mean, if I really want to... I cant write it. If I want to end my life, I can. So why not? I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry for everything I've done, and all the pain I've caused you. I wish one day, you'll forgive me, and understand what I'm going through. But you can never undertand what its like to be me. The me. The monster everyone hates. I wish I could change my mind, but I've tried, and failed. I failed. Like before, everything I want just fails and collapses in front of me. I wouldnt mind living in comma, just give hope, but I cant. There's too much pain I've already caused to all of you, and I cant continue this. Mom, I love you. I love everything you did for me, and I owe you way too much. And this is why I'm doing this. You're young. You can start a new life, far, far away from here, and forget I was ever on this planet anyway. I just want you to know- I love you. I love you, and I wish I can stay here for you, but I cant. I know how much it hurts for you to know that I am your daughter. Not someone else. I see it in your eyes, but I cant do anything about it. Once again, keep going. For Lisa, for Chris. For everyone that loves you, and deserves you. Not like me. I just dont deserve any of you. I dont deserve any of the support I've recieved, but it didnt help. Why would I deny it in such a way? But for now, I apologize, and leave.
Good Bye.
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