I feel bad for you sweetie,
You met a really great girl. Sure, she isn't anything like your "die hard, party hard"
friends. But she was real. She was fun. And most of all? She cared about you.
She was there for you when your uncle was in the hospital, she was there for you
when you were bummed about skiing, she was there for you when you missed
your friends who had moved. She listened to your problems, did anything to make
you laugh. She never complained, except once. Out of five months together, she
never demanded anything from you. Out of five months together, she felt like the
luckiest girl on the planet. In the universe. Her world revolved around you, and
that's why she got hurt. She made the mistake of placing you at the top of her list
and expecting you not to hurt her. Did she ever once make the top of your list? Or
was she just another pleasure in your life? When you broke up with her, she cried.
She expected you to be fair, b ut you didn't give her a chance. You wanted to be
with your friends more, because for some bullshit reason, you felt like you couldn't
mix her with your friends. Maybe you're right. Maybe she was too special for that.
She deserves the attention and effection of a boy who would do anything for her.
You'll regret it. When partying is just another thing in your life, and you realize you
miss the girl who shined for you, do her a favor, since you never really did before;
don't talk to her. Don't look at her, don't give her any idea that you care again.
If you were dumb enough to leave her in the first place, she's smart enough
to never go back. ♥